I haven’t taken my injections in 3 days. 

Oh god up until now I’ve been so good about taking the medication but I guess I’m experiencing some needle fatigue? 

It’s just, god, I was told it would get easier. I was told my skin would get used to it. I was told it would hurt less as treatment goes on. 

But none of that is true for me. Sometimes it feels like I’m injecting wrong. My skin gets these giant itchy blotches and bruises. And it hurts to inject. It still really hurts. 

And I know it’s really bad to skip injections, but these last few days without them just felt good? No, good’s not the word. Normal. These last few days have made me feel normal. And the thing is I felt bad about missing the first one— and then I realized nothing happened. So I missed the second day. Now I’ve missed today because I “forgot”. And I don’t feel any different. 

But this is so bad.

Now that I know nothing bad will happen when I skip injections, what if I keep allowing myself to not take them?  The treatment isn’t going to work and it’s going to be my fault and I just want to be a 18 year old worried about acne instead of putting needles in my arms/hips/stomach/legs and stress can cause MS flare ups and I need to calm down but ajfjghskdfjajdfjkshf

And when you goddamn bloggers post shit like, “I wish my life was harder so I would have reasons to complain” or “I wish there was something wrong with me”

just

just fucking fuck you

FUCK YOU